Diet updates (after so long)

I was a chubby baby but an average child. I was pretty thin around 7 to 9 years old until puberty hit me.  I ate way too much during puberty thinking that I will outgrow the baby fats. I would eat two Filet O Fish Burgers and then go for a bowl of porridge and still be half full. My favourite 'fast meal' of those days is baked potato with cheese and egg and I would eat it for almost every lunch. With my habit of eating my weight escalated quickly and I became the chubby one in class. At 156cm I was 64kg when I was 12 years old.
I became a subject of bully because of my weight but I did not care about my weight that much. After I left primary school, I carried on my bad eating habits till secondary school. My weight remain stagnant at the high 60s till the mid 70s. I thought it was alright because I didn't gain weight, I didn't hit the 80s, I wasn't in the 100s, I am just overweight. I also thought I would outgrow my weight by growing taller. Through the years I grew 9cm taller but didn't make any difference to my stature and also overweight body.
During my secondary years, when I did my body checkup. I remember how nurses told me to lose some weight because I was actually overweight. My BMI was in the overweight category.
Still, I didn't take it too seriously but I did tried cut down some of my food portion hoping the weight would magically go away and it did not last long. I am back with my old habits, eating away. This habit did carried through to my college and university years. I did not weigh my weight then but I think I was about 72-74kg at that time.

During my third year in university, I did a weight check for a BMI and metabolism calculation for a class. My weight was shockingly 69kg. I knew if I do not do something, my weight is going to remain like this for the rest of my life and It is really unhealthy. I am going to remain chubby and I would not be able to have a nice body to wear pretty clothes and bikini for the rest of my life.

I decided to diet and I did document the diet journeys in this blog.

Looking back at my old diet post. I realize how unhealthy I am despite trying to be healthy.

Here are the old diet updates. #1 , #2 , #3 and #4 . Well the updates didn't last long because I was too lazy to update on what I eat weekly on the blog.
I thought I was healthy by cutting down the amount I eat, well, it is much lesser than how much I used to eat circa 2010 but the calorie intake is still way too high compared to how much I actually need daily since those days I do not exercise or workout or play any sports. Basically, I was a couch potato.
I used to not count calories too, I just eat what I feel like eating by reducing portion by half or what I think is reduced portion size. I still ate like crazy, munching on junk food almost daily ,I still do it till today but I am more cautious. I used to be able to finish a whole pack of potato chips, wafer or biscuits and call it just a snack. That's like probably a whopping 500 calories extra each day and 30% of my needed calorie intake for the day and I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner like a king. I used to eat one cup of cooked rice, that probably 700 calories and I do eat side dishes.
Even so, I did lose a tiny bit of weight during that year, probably only 1-2kg for the year. I did cut down from where I use to stand, probably around 160lbs or so.

Until now, after 4 years, I am still on my weight loss journey but I have got closer to my goal weight than ever. In this journey there were lots of up and downs. Looking back, I am more proud than ever to say I have did it.
I am still not the most healthy of person, I don't practice full clean eating.I still eat unhealthy food such as potato chips, cake, ice cream but all in moderation and only on days where I declare cheat meal day.

I have been more cautious with calories by logging in everything I put into my mouth into myfitnesspal and I choose the healthiest cooking method for my food by either baking or steaming or boiling them.
Also, I workout and exercise almost everyday when I can slot time to workout. Mainly cardio infused with bodyweight training for weight loss and build some muscles.
Cautiously counting on calories and working out really helped me become leaner and shed some pounds.

Now I weight about 125-127lbs. My goal weight is 114-116lbs.

Photos of me circa 2011-2012

Circa 2014 when I started to see myself losing the weight. My cheeks are not so fat as how it was before. Fats usually accumulate at my face when I gain weight.

Circa 2015. My weight has been the same but I can how my cheeks are not as fat anymore. I do not know is it the process of losing baby fat or all those work out has been paying off. I could feel my body is more toned.

Circa 2016
Through out 2014-2016, my weight has remained the same but I could even see the difference. Even, people have been complementing I have lost a lot of weight compared to 2 years ago when my weight has been the same.

Weight loss project 2015 : Food diary entry #1

Tuesday
Breakfast : 4 rye crispbread with spreads, a slice of white bread with salami, a slice wheat baton with spread, a piece of quark biscuit, a zefir.
Lunch : 125g of 0% Quark and a medium Banana
Dinner : a shared bowl of Vietnamese noodle
Misc : three pieces of biscuits, two crispbread and a zefir

Have been on the zefir addiction. I guess I could allow myself to cheat on them for today. Crispbread are my favourite to go tiny bites, each crisp contains 14 calories and they taste good with spread on. Bread slices here are kind of small so usually I go for two slices. I have just started trying quark because I couldn't find 0% yogurt in the hypermarket, to me they taste like a stronger yogurt, I am fine with the taste. Didn't expect to eat Vietnamese noodles for today but I guess it is okay since I shared the portion.

Wednesday
Breakfast : 5 rye crispbread with spreads, a slice of white bread with ham, bits and pieces of snacks.
Lunch : 4 pieces of biscuits , 4 crispbread
Dinner : 6 crispbread, quarter cup of rice, 20g of green beans and a tomato.
Misc : coffee

As you can see I love rye crispbread, they are 14 calories each piece and for the whole pack, it is only 290 calories. For some people it may be bland and tasteless but I like it especially with some dips or spread. They are like my bread replacement. Snacks, snacks, I love to snack but I have like a bite of each biscuits and leave another for later, this is just for the satisfaction. For lunch, I have classes through the afternoon and I was too hungry and I didn't pack food, manage to snack on people's meal. Biscuits are not the healthiest but what can you do when you are hungry.
Coffee, I have become a coffee person but I don't have it daily. Today I had it because I wanted to try out a new Vietnamese coffee that I have bought from the Asian market.

Thursday
Breakfast : 2 crispbread, a slice of white bread with ham, a slice of white bread with chocolate spread, 2 biscuits
Lunch : banana, 7 crispbread, 3 biscuits, a slice of white bread, a zefir, a chocolate
Dinner : 6 crispbread

Since I was quite busy, this is a really bad low calorie diet with lots of carbs. I think I just brought my whole crispbread addiction to a whole new level. Crispbread for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

Friday
Breakfast : 2 white bread with spread, 7 cripsbread, a biscuit and some snacks
Lunch : Bread with cottage cheese, snacks and biscuits
Dinner : chicken curry, fried chicken, coleslaw, plov, fried noodles, potato chips, muffins, bak kut teh, lots of snacks

Had a group dinner and basically I screw up my diet. Had too much food, everything is just too good to have a bite. I have no self control when it comes to food. That is why I can't go into a buffet. Gained 2kgs of water weight, hopefully it is a water weight since most food are really sodium loaded. I have to work out for the next week to shed the pounds away.

Saturday
Breakfast : a piece of white bread with spread, 7 crispbread, 2 biscuits
Lunch : 3 crispbread, coffee
Dinner : Boiled 150g tofu and 2 leaves of cabbage soup, 3 crispbread

A total food hangover the next day that doesn't make me in the food for actual food. As you can see most food I had are low calorie and not too flavourful, to combat yesterday's sodium overload in my system.

Sunday
Breakfast : 7 crispbread, 2 biscuits, a piece of white bread with spread, 130g yogurt.
Lunch : sandwich (a slice of bread), 2 crispbread
Dinner : 2 slices of bread (sandwich form), cabbage and 150g tofu soup, 3 crispbread, a chocolate, a chicken thigh (not all, half)

Today we had a sports carnival and I had more food compared to yesterday. I was just plain hungry, so I had slightly more than usual to curb my hunger.

Monday
Breakfast : 8 Crispbread, a yogurt and 2 biscuits
Lunch : Some biscuits and Muesli bar
Dinner : a shared portion of fried rice, a little napoleon cake, a slice of white bread, 9 crispbread

Eversince I incorporated work out routines I find myself more hungry than usual but that is to be expected since we need fuel to energize our body back. I am increasing my food intake a little more than usual so that I won't get too hungry but also I am controlling my portion so I won't go overboard and let my work outs go to waste. 

Weight loss project 2015 : Rant #1

I wanted to post a post on my weight loss but my diet is a total mess right now which had demotivated me from posting it and collecting cyberdust in my drafts.
I gained weight since my holiday trip and also from the sheer few days of Chinese New Year celebration.
I gained approximately 3kgs from all the food I had during this period and It had went down about 1kg since when I last had a enormous meal from Chinese New Year celebration. I am still not proud of this though.

I am trying to get back on track with downsizing my portion but I am still having desserts and sweets which is not helping much. I know I have to eliminate my desserts and sweets in order to lose weight.
I need to be strict on myself and eat clean and healthy.
I had bought a lot of healthy food from the hypermarket ( I will post a grocery haul soon) and at the same time I still have leftovers of unhealthy food such as chocolate, biscuits and cakes from my grocery shopping way back last year. Also, I have to kick myself today for buying more unhealthy snacks like biscuits and marshmallows. I am going to finish them off and not touching them.

Exercising wise, I am not yet back on track with my exercise routine. I have slacked off since my study break but I am slowly regaining it back, hopefully I can regain it soon. I want to get back to routine by exercising daily after class. Hopefully my roommate doesn't find me annoying or irritating.
I never posted anything on my exercise routine or the fact I do exercise.
In case anyone is interested, I do workouts following youtube videos from popsugar fitness, fitness blender and keaira lashae's channel. These three channels, I swear by their workouts.

Also, I am thinking that I should start documenting what I eat in a day so that, I will control my food intake much more and be more discipline. The last post that I did a food intake diary is circa 2011, That is so long ago. Since then I have been slacking with food intake diaries on my blog but I have been using my fitness pal to record my food intake on some days. I have been using it for a year or so, I find it did control my food intake to 1320 calories per day. Other than that, I have also been snacking because I couldn't see that I had consume snacks on the diary since I always use the 'quick add calories' option.

So I will be posting more weight loss entries , rants, anything related to weight loss until I achieve my ideal weight. I have been struggling with weight loss for quite a long time eversince I am in high school, so now, I am very determine to achieve my ideal weight. It has been taking too long. I am almost at the end of university life and I have yet to achieve it.
Incase , anyone wants to know my weight. I fluctuate between 125-130 pounds. 

bye bye cast

Finally, i removed my cast. Say bye bye to smelly feet and cast.

It has been 3 weeks since I twisted my leg well it seems my casted leg lost a lot of muscles. 

I could hardly support myself with the casted leg thus movement is slow, I am doing some physiotherapy myself to build back my calf muscle and well, get moving everywhere

Now I can just walk small steps by small steps. Like a baby who is learning how to walk.

My weight has been the lowest since 5-6 years ago. About 2kg or so gone.
I suspect I lost muscles but one calf muscle shouldn't weight that much?
Consider as I didn't do any diet this month, and I just had a cheese cake, a slice of cheese cake.

My diet life

Since I told anyone my weight before. I am gonna write an essay for this. hehe.

So early September I started out being 154.3 lbs. That's heavy for my height and what not.
So I cut down my portion of food and what not. I cut down on eating heavy meals for breakfast which I opted for a more healthy one. Milk and Cereal and Yogurt.
My cereal of choice is Fitness cereal because well, actually because it's one of the best tasting cereal over here. I don't like how most cereal gets soggy after being soaked in milk but this one still has the crunchyness. So I got the plus point which is low in carbs but gives me sufficient carbs to work my first half of the day.
Yogurt is expensive to eat daily but nevermind I love it and carbs are low in yogurt too.
Breakfast itself is +/- 350 cals
OMG it's so fattening. Wait, I didn't aim to eat less than 1000calories per day anyway. Not yet for now.

With the change in my diet I saw gradual weight lost. So far I am about 147lbs which is still, sadly heavy, but hey it's just one month through the diet. I don't except I wake up to 100lbs the next day I started dieting.
Well it takes a lot of motivation and endurance to go through a diet. Sometimes we give up when we don't see gradual weight lost but don't give up.
I have given up many times but this time I am not.
I keep telling to myself.
If i loose weight I will be able to fit in beautiful dresses that I always wanted to.
If I loose weight I shall look so much prettier.
If I loose weight I would feel so good about myself
If I loose weight I shall be healthier!

When I am loosing weight, I spend less money on food thus I got more money to spend on whatever clothes, cosmetics, shoes and bags I want which makes me happy.

My goal weight is 110lbs. For now.
I would be a stick if I am under 100lbs. I don't want to be an "aeroplane track"-chest stick thin girl.

Another thing.
Do I binge?
Nope. I haven't binge.

Fast food & sweet food?
I seldom eat fast food. The most I have eaten is 2-3 times per month, usually I don't eat them at all.
I seldom eat sweet food, I don't usually crave for cupcakes, cakes, tarts or macaroons. The closest thing to sweet food I always crave is hot chocolate. Even so, I don't drink it daily, maybe 2-3 cups per week when I don't have a proper lunch to eat.

If you like these type of food, it's time to cut down all the bad carbs and opt for healthier food like wholemeal bread, rice, noodles and oats( I don't really like oats)
Rice is a healthier choice compared to bread and noodles (unless it's not flour-based like rice vermicelli)

update on diet after a month

This is like seriously overdue. 

I am kinda happy how the change of eating style enabled me to loose 1.5kg in a week or so.

I stopped taking in oily food an junk food and only eating 3 times a day. Pumped up on fiber to prevent constipation and eating more fruits and vegetables. 

Every breakfast I have been eating only Fitness cereal (high in fiber and low in fat) with chocolate/coffee milk (I hate full cream/plain white milk) plus yogurt. 

Lunch I am eating meat stuffs. Never cut down on meat stuffs on a diet. You still need protein, you don't want to shed muscles. 

Dinner, it's soba. Lately I have just been eating soba with either gravlax and raw lettuce or grilled chicken because I am too lazy to open my packet of rice and also lazy cooking is contributing and I haven't bought much groceries.I should start cooking up my newly bought salmon. Anyway rice is a better compared to flour based noodles or bread. They don't turn into much fat compared to the latter. 

and to diets that I couldn't take it. 

" " only diets - I am like to eat variety of food. I can't imagine eating only banana or cabbage for the whole week, I might just cry.

fasting - rebound alert. 

No carbs diet - I love soba and rice too much to give it up but I can give up bread. 

never know what you'll find...

I cleaned up my room today and lookie what I found.
My past fandom stuffs. Like a huge ton of it.

Kinda embarrass to say it. I used to be a Johnny's Entertainment fan. I mean I still do care about them but not as much, now it's more like a casual listen or casual watch of their variety shows and stuffs.
It's like I outgrown the fandom a little.


Look at the amount of idol magazine I have. Now it is a headache to find where to store them.

Idol concert goods. Hey!Say!JUMP to be exact. *shy away*



an uchiwa. jumbo size uchiwa.

*>.<*

Today I did some experimenting, this FOTD is inspired by Korean artist makeup.
I am not quite a fan of this style since it involves a lot of black eyeshadow and eyeliner.
but gotta like the fiercer look?

Swatch of the lipstick I used. I found my Etude House Petit Darling Lipstick in PK006 amongst my stash.
I guess it has already been discontinued.

The packaging is really cute, the picture didn't do it any justice.

The swatch.baby pink leaning towards the lavender side.



On diet side. I have been "cycling" on the cycling machine for an hour today. slow though since my stamina is terrible but hopefully I am gonna see some improvement on my weight.
Since I came back from Moscow I gained 1kg but in Moscow I lost a few kgs, not much but still it's good for me. I am gonna put more effort on loosing tons of weight since i am on the chubby side right now.

Weight Loss project : Week 5

Have been having a really bad ulcer for the week, so you could say I was on a mashed potato diet since I had a hard time chewing on solid food but I did have some proper food at early of the week when I still hadn't developed the ulcer.

Did some stir friend chinese cabbage with chicken in oyster sauce earlier of the week.

Besides that, I think it is mostly Mashed Potato, Bread and Cereal.

Addicted to Twix too. I have kick off this addiction, I guess this provokes the ulcer more.

So far have been walking more to uni since the weather is fair.

So still moving.

Next week I will be on steamed or boiled food diet.

Weight loss project : Week 4

I have been slacking off this week because I have been pretty much sick and I didn't care too much about my diet.

I am sticking with my move more habit. Will update next week

Weight loss project : Week 3

Let's start this week with move! Walk the stairs to my room and to university.

Sunday

Breakfast : 3 pieces of white bread with butter

Lunch : Pasta

Dinner : 1/2 cup rice, nuggets, stir fried vege.

Misc : a pack of wafer.

Monday

Breakfast : 2 wafers

Lunch : Rice and Grilled Chicken

Dinner : Rice, Stir fried chicken with vege, 2 oranges

Misc : wafers and coffee.

Tuesday

Breakfast : instant oats

Lunch : shaurma

Dinner : Rice, baked beans with egg, fried salmon

Wednesday

Breakfast : Skipped

Lunch : plain porridge with marmite

Dinner : Plain porridge with marmite

misc : wafer

Sick day this the diet explains all.

Thursday

Breakfast : 1 slice of bread with nutella, instant noodle with chinese cabbage and egg.

Lunch : Skipped

Dinner : Pasta

The clinic visit made me missed my lunch and the worst, i cant get hold of the doctor.

Friday

Breakfast : Pasta

Lunch : Pizza, cake

Dinner : 2 Ikea Hotdog, Soup, Salad

Saturday

Breakfast : Skipped

Lunch : Porridge

Dinner : Porridge

As you see, sick week. Have not been feeling well.

But there's a weight gain.

Diet : Week 2

I already broke the rule for day one. Didn't have any vege intake because I was too lazy too cook.

Sunday

Breakfast : 4 wafers

Lunch : Pasta with spaghetti sauce

Dinner : 4 wafers

Misc : Few pieces of biscuits, a cup of coffee

What I ate on Sunday is really not recommended. My breakfast and dinner is really unhealthy but I was lazy and well, a little busy too since my whole book shelves fell apart and gotta fix it.

Finally finished my wafers, not gonna repurchase them to restrain myself from eating these unhealthy snacks.

Monday

Breakfast : 3 slices of bread with nutella/cheese spread

Lunch : 1/2 cup of rice, sweet and sour drumstick with vege

Dinner : 1/2 cup of rice, fried vege, an orange

Misc : A slice of bread with nutella

Today's lunch and dinner are much healthier choices. Chinese style stir fried vege and chicken usually contain minimal amount of salt and also fats.

Somehow I think i have to put away that cheese spread and nutella.

Tuesday

Breakfast : skipped

Lunch : Rice, Pork, Fried Vege and Bun

Dinner : Rice, Stir fried chicken with white radish in miso paste, grapes

Misc : Ice creams , Lays chips

Really unhealthy for today as during midnight I accompanied my friends for ice cream and chips. So gonna balance it with a balanced lunch and dinner.

Wednesday

Breakfast : Instant oats

Lunch : 2 buns, orange

Dinner : 1/2 cup rice, Stir fried chicken with white radish in miso paste, orange

Misc: ice cream

Thursday

Breakfast : Instant oats

Lunch : Rice , Stir fried chicken with white radish in miso paste, Bun, Salad

Dinner : 1/2 cup rice, steamed fish, orange

Misc : ice cream

I should be kicking off the ice cream habit. Urgh!

Friday

Breakfast : Instant Oats

Lunch : Plain macaroni , steamed fish, bun, salad

Dinner : Apple Crumble, Swedish meatballs, Salad and Soup (basically Ikea Food)

Definitely the heaviest meal in the week.

Salad, Apple Crumble and Soup

Meatballs, didnt finish the baked potatoes. Was too full

In the end I think I ate too much, I had a bad stomach upset.

shucks

Saturday

Breakfast : Skipped. Overslept

Lunch : Instant Shaurma

Dinner : 1/2 cup rice, stir fried carrot with crabmeat, 4 pieces of chicken nuggets

Misc :a pack of wafers (there goes 500 kcal), Ice Cream.

When I was searching for food in the fridge I amazingly found an instant shaurma and a pack of chicken nuggets which I do not know from which decade. Gotta finish all my food stuffs in the fridge before comes Summer holidays.

I dont know if my eyes are cheating on me or what, it looks like there's a -0.5kg or so but I dont know is it due to the food intake or... stomach upset.

Next up. Move more.

Since my knee is kind of healed now (gonna talk about this later). I am gonna walk more.

Diet : Week 1

To loose 50lbs.

This week my aim is to take in more water. Avoid soda at all cost.

Let's start with this week's food intake

Sunday

Breakfast : 1 piece of plain donut with chocolate filling

Lunch : 1/2 cup of rice worth of porridge with marmite

Dinner : About 1/2cup of rice with sweet and sour chicken with onions and chinese cabbage.

Misc : 5pieces of wafer and 1cup of hot chocolate .

Monday

Breakfast : 1 and 1/2 pieces of donut with chocolate filling

Lunch : Salad consist of tomatoes, chinese cabbage and carrot with lemon juice + some mayonnaise, small portion of mashed potato and grilled drumstick.

Dinner : 1/2cup rice with steamed broccoli with bits of salted salmon

Misc : 2 pieces of wafer, 4 mini egg tart, 1 big egg tart( made by roomie! I am taste tester)

Egg tart made by my lovely roomie.

Tuesday

Breakfast : 1 mini egg tart and 2 big egg tarts

Lunch : Mashed Potato with Grilled Drumstick, potato + meat salad

Dinner : 1/2 cup rice, chinese style black pepper chicken + vege, 100g baked beans + egg

Misc : 1 bag of skittles, 5 pieces of wafer, 1 cup of hot chocolate

My leftover Black Pepper Chicken. Gonna have it tomorrow.

Wednesday

Breakfast : 1 donut, 1 hotdog

Lunch : Grilled chicken wings, 4-5 spoons of russian rice( didn't like it), salad

Dinner : 1/2 cup rice, leftover black pepper chicken

Misc : 6 pieces wafer( trying to finish it...), a cup of hot chocolate.

Thursday

Breakfast : Donut, wafer

Lunch : Rice, Pork, Salad

Dinner : Shaurma and 4 wafers

Misc : A bunch of grapes.

Friday

Breakfast : Skipped

Lunch : 1 slice of pizza

Dinner : Switz meatballs, baked potatoes, salad and apple crumble.

Misc : a cup of coffee, 3 pieces of wafer, bunch of grapes

Saturday

Breakfast : 3 slices of bread, 2 pieces of wafer
Lunch : Rice and Chicken
Dinner : Rice, Scrambled eggs, Stir-fried vege and bak kut teh.
Misc : Ice cream, 2 pieces of wafer

Results : No fluctuation in weight. Still remains the same.

So for random stuff. This round of groceries, I bought more fruits and also vege.
Planning for a fruits detox soon.

but I am gonna start next week with a vege diet. Every meal shall contain vegetables.